Some of you might think that I am somebody who have everything I need and that it might be easy for me, doing Footpath of Life, because I have a full bank account, rich parents or anything. Some of you think, that for sure companies will support me with each and everything. In this document I will explain to you, that it is far away from any rose colored fantasy you might have. Way more than once I think destiny is not helping me on purpose, just to show:
Mario is right, everything is possible, even if you don´t have anything including no future, as you might feel it.
So what I am doing here is no blaming, it just tells how I am supported or better the lack of support and stuff which would make me feel better. But let´s start with a list, showing what happend….
Around more the 30 requests are still open but I am afraid I will never receive an answer.
21. The reasons for not supporting this project are always the same one:
I want you to see that I have anything but no real help, no savings, almost no supports and many people thinks: he is crazy and an idiot. I am sure some of my so called internet friends thinks that too. I would have any reason to give up, especially if I count one and one together and if I watch out what I will lose: My job, earning money, all my insurances, money for my retirement, my so called safe future.
I should stay at home and giving up and doing what many people hope I will do: giving up. I should live somehow and simply go on with my life – however I would do this. Almost nobody wants to believe in it, nobody feels and see what I feel and see and nobody trust in me. Do you have an idea how it feels? .... I can tell you, not good, not at all.
You see, there is no rose colored and safe future. But I started to give away my belongings and at the end of the year I will sell everything on ebay and of course I will lose money by doing that and many things I must throw away. What will be left are three Caredboard boxes with very private eblongings and papers – that’s it. I have nothing more than what I can carry on my back and some stuff I already bought to see, if it´s really good. I will have nothing more than my faith and my courage and this is enough to prove:
If you don´t believe in me and that what I will do is one thing – but watch out for it and damned, believe in yourself and the power you have because this is the only base you can trust and which will bring you forward and out of the darkness. If you don´t believe it watch out what I will do and / or come with me and walk some days, weeks or months – this will give you new perspectives – promised.
I know what i means to lose everything, to be on the ground of the mental hell, how it feels if you want to die, how it feels to die and how it feels to lose the partner through suicide. I am not a babblers - I was there, I have done all .... thats why
Above on this site you will find all the social networks I am in. It will be a major help if you connect with me in those networks.
I will use them to document my walk around the world. On youtube you will find weekly video documentations. On flicker I will do the daily photo documentary. The best pic of the day you will find on instagram and much more. Where I will write about the adventures is not sure yet.
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Please help with your friendship and sharings.
Thank you so much.
In any case, crazy enough to devote my life to a task that has become much more important to me than my home, my scooter and my garden. It is my life task, because a suicide kills us all in one way or another.